OK, so this is not really so much a question as it is a concern... what the hell is wrong with people today? Working for people isn't all it's cracked up to be. I know people have their moments, but DAMN! Does your moment need to happen on a daily basis? Does this moment need to involve the people who take care of you and support what you do and how you do it? I have my moments, true, but I have learned how to direct my anger. It feels good knowing anger is not misdirected, as that could cause an unfortunate soul, who may already be having a bad day theirselves, to catch the blunt end of the knife cause you are pissed at someone/something else. But WHY do people wanna be all 'head up their anus' today? I don't have time or the patience. This makes me feel like just walking out/away and never coming back! There is no point in being where I'm not wanted, right? Seriously! Where is that bottle of ES VSOP when I need it?
I have decided to be benevolent today, in hopes that I will in turn be blessed to move forward in my life, progressing away from the negativity and anger that is surrounding me.
Friday, November 14, 2008
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
A 'Common' Experience
So I say to myself, self, see if you can take over the radio show Friday night at WXDU 88.7 FM Durham... so you can have some air time. SO, I send a text to the DJ, and the convo went a little something like this:
ME: I'm bogarding your show Friday... K? I need to download some new music, too.
DJ: Yeah that's cool... what are you doing around 10:15 tonight?
ME: Um... Nothing, y?
DJ: Someome will be at the station.
ME: Sum1 like who? For me to download music?
DJ: No... who is your favorite Rapper?
ME:.... :-O SHUT YO MOUF!
As I proceeded to think, WOW! OMG! How do I not come off looking like a groupie? I said, self, you have met so many people in the past... Xzibit, 112, 50 Cent, Heather Headly, Ludacris, Twista, and been able to hold it together (except that one time, when my mouth outran my brain, but we won't go there... lets just say there is a marriage proposal still out there....) there is no need to be nervous, but at the same time, I think to myself, THIS IS COMMON! He is a MAJOR part of the foundation of Hip-Hop... he has helped shape and mold conscious music into what it is today! He has encouraged and enlightened the best of us... He is one of the first out of the Chi to make it with the music HE loves and believes in, and can take it to a whole-nother level by being the positive influence that is COMMON! Not allowing the industry lables to sway him to put out or become that crude, bull$h*t they (and many other unfortunate souls) consider music, is one of many reasons I admire him so much.
I just wanted to share MY experience with the world. People have perceptions about artists and how they interact with fans and other personalities. Common is a naturally cool, INTELLIGENT, down to Earth brotha. He walked in the room cool, calm and collected without having to make his presence known... He wasn't flashy... no jewelry, no sunglasses -that is so tacky! THERE IS NO SUN IN THE ROOM, AND YOU DO NOT HAVE A MIGRANE, NOR DID YOU JUST HAVE YOUR PUPILS DIALATED!- My apologies, I digress... I guess when you've been in the game that long, and you have been around so many people; from fans to other artists and producers and actors and actresses, you become a little numb and begin to blend in... at least that's how he made it seem. He was just one of us, although we knew he was so much more than just one of us (he seemed even shy at moments, but he talked to me like we had been homies for a minute! That was maybe one of the best moments in my book of life!)!!!! Thank you Common... for exceeding my expectations of who you truely are as an artist, and as a human being... and thank you DJ for thinking enough about me to tell me about this opportunity (although you probably wouldn't have called to let me know if I hadn't text you first! :oP )
THROWBACK!!!!!
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Observations
As I sit here at my little corner desk, hoping that the day will bring positive news, I quietly observe my surroundings... (Would this lady cover her mouth when she’s coughing? MY GOODNESS!) It saddens me when my mind confirms what my eyes witness.
Realistically, the ratio of men to women executives in this organization seems to be surprisingly even, HOWEVER, the ratio of white men/women to black men/women executives and managers, is NOT!
Of the people around me, I am the only black woman in my position in this building (not that my position is all that to boast about, but I serve an important role), and there are very few black managers and executives within the entire organization, which does business all around the world. I guess it just bothers me to see that white men (some are from India, so they are not all white… but they are not black!) are doing much of nothing here, except (complaining for the most part) sitting in meetings all day and traveling excessively, creating unneeded expenses. I see many black men come in and out of these locked, glass doors looking for employment, and never again do I see their faces. Granted, there is an extensive background search that must be conducted, but, contrary to popular belief, NOT ALL BLACK MEN ARE CRIMINALS. Many are VERY intelligent and articulate (hence we have Barack Obama as our 44th President! YES WE DID!), deserving the opportunity to help grow companies to their fullest potential. I know not all organizations are like this, but I know the one I work for seems to have a glass door instead of glass ceiling… preventing blacks from coming in. Again, this is just my observation, as I sit here at my desk hoping for positive news, a great change, and quietly watching most of the opportunities be afforded to those other than they who look like me.
Realistically, the ratio of men to women executives in this organization seems to be surprisingly even, HOWEVER, the ratio of white men/women to black men/women executives and managers, is NOT!
Of the people around me, I am the only black woman in my position in this building (not that my position is all that to boast about, but I serve an important role), and there are very few black managers and executives within the entire organization, which does business all around the world. I guess it just bothers me to see that white men (some are from India, so they are not all white… but they are not black!) are doing much of nothing here, except (complaining for the most part) sitting in meetings all day and traveling excessively, creating unneeded expenses. I see many black men come in and out of these locked, glass doors looking for employment, and never again do I see their faces. Granted, there is an extensive background search that must be conducted, but, contrary to popular belief, NOT ALL BLACK MEN ARE CRIMINALS. Many are VERY intelligent and articulate (hence we have Barack Obama as our 44th President! YES WE DID!), deserving the opportunity to help grow companies to their fullest potential. I know not all organizations are like this, but I know the one I work for seems to have a glass door instead of glass ceiling… preventing blacks from coming in. Again, this is just my observation, as I sit here at my desk hoping for positive news, a great change, and quietly watching most of the opportunities be afforded to those other than they who look like me.
Friday, November 7, 2008
The Evil Diva
Just to take a moment to introduce myself, I am the evil diva… I am a thorough, defined, refined, selective, and unruffled woman. In short, I’m a bitch for the most part, but I’m that cool chick (at least that’s what all the guys tell me) that you want in your corner when times get tough. I love to listen, I hate to talk, but I love to write. Because the reality of my life is so simplistic, I steadily strive to find obstacles to entertain me. They tend to be few and far between though. Maybe I look for too much out of life, or maybe life is looking for more out of me, and I don’t know how to give it?
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